heres another link. Its this Flash cartoon over at Newgrounds. At first it might seem like a South Park rip off, but give it a chance, its pretty funny. Follow the story through to episode 3, that was the most hilarious shite I've seen man... really.. oh yea.. and to access the other 2 episodes, use the pull down menu at the bottom left corner of the page I originally gave. yep.. get back to me if you can't find the other 2 eps

Just did this test...
Personality Disorder Test Results

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Low
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Click Here To Take The Test --

So I put a little background in the blog iframe, give it a little, garnishing so to speak. And I put in a new link, its where I got the brushes for the bg from. Miss M has some pretty nice look brushes and I *borrowed* them all. So anyone who needs to *borrow* brushes, you can go look for her. They're pretty good.

Did I mention that I actually found a job yesterday? But I'm going to turn it down... Its a job as a server (nice word for waiter eh?) and it pays $5 an hour. I have no idea why I agreed to come back on monday. This weakness to authority figures has got to stop man. Because of this meekness of mine, I was not able to KENG my way to a deskjob in the army.

Doc: Hows your back nowadays?
How it SHOULD have been
Me: Oh, it still hurts when I run and jump too much. It hurts real bad.

How it REALLY went
Me: Erm, its not giving me a lot of trouble lately.

DAMMIT!

Oh yea.. and my good friend's girlfriend bought me a gift from Malaysia! haha.. Its this rubbery blue globe with white powder in it. When you squeeze it or shake it about, the white powder swirls around the blue globe, so it looks like clouds floating across the sky... sort of. Anyway, I got one from Japan the last time, but it got punctured, and she was there when it happened. I'm surprised she remembered actually. So here's a BIG thanks to her.. but then again, she doesn't come here does she? hmmmm ah well, its the thought that counts right? :)

Today, bootcamp (the "reality" series) ended. For those who don't watch TV, boot camp is about I think.. 16 or 18 men and women who willingly join the US army to go through the gruelling training the army has to offer. Everyweek, the squad votes one recruit off (duh~). However, the fun part is that that recruit can immediately pull someone down with him. He can DISCHARGE another recruit that will leave bootcamp with him. So anyway, at the end of it, the last remaining 2 recruits go through what the show called "the gauntlet", which is basically a series of physical stuff (yes, very intelligent word, I know). So the final winner is decided like this. First recruit to get 7 dogtags (like points) wins. There are 7 gauntlet events, each named after each recruit that was voted off. The last 2 recruits were Wolf and damn.. whats her name? Whitlow I think. So Wolf won 6 of the 7 gauntlet events. So thats 6 dogtags. The 6 discharged recruits will then "vote" and give their dogtags to either of the recruits. Surprise, surprise, after all the drama and the tension. Wolf walks away with ZERO additional dogtags. Whitlow managed to win every single discharged recruits' dog tags! Amazing! Basically, everyone didn't like Wolf.

Poor bugger. Lost 40,000 cos of a dumb D-ring...

Did I mention that yesterday, while I was happily taking a leak at a urinal, a butch came strolling in? Ok.. my fault, for all I know, he/she could have been a very feminine-masculine looking guy. But I wasn't the only one who thought it was a butch. 2 other guys thought the same. Still it is very unnerving to be standing there with yer shlong out and have someone walk in on you like that.

Anyway, I just cleaned up my room, vacuumed it, mopped it, took the carpet out.. soaked it a little and put it out to sun. It doesn't feel as rewarding as I hope it would have.

I miss LA. For those who didn't know, I went to LA sometime in August last year to attend the Siggraph convention. It was a school thing so thats why I got to go. You know, thanks to the subsidised rates and everything. It was my very first trip to the States and it was all good, sortof.

When I was there, I didn't really get any like.. "contact" with locals. I didn't mingle around and live my life as an LA'ian, I was a tourist. Yea.. So don't mistake it that I love the lifestyle there, I think LA would be a horrible place to live in, cause its kinda.... unsafe..... But wot I did like was the food and.. siggraph.. oh! and the city.. I like.. and the theme parks... and the weather!!! yea! i liked the weather A LOT..

so thats my fucking lame blog for today...

Why is everyone bitching about the Esplanade?
"oh!! Its such and eye sore!" "oh!!Its so ugly!!"

Is the Esplanade in your backyard?? NO!!!
What the fuck do you care?!

Looking fresh people! A new layout.. with LINKS this time!! haha.. happy days are here :)

I got the pleasure of watching a live stand up performance today. The Just for Laughs comedy show came to singapore for 4 performances and I got to catch the last one today. It was good..

* A small sidetrack, MTV shows the same MTVs 12 hours later. Stuff i watch at 3pm can be seen at 3am later, like what I'm doing now.... *
* Another sidetrack, Eminen is verrrry interesting... considering getting the album.. those lyrics of his... very interesting.. watching "cleanin' out my closet" right now *

So about the show... a total of 4 guys performed. I don't remember all of their names though.... Overall it was a GREAT show.. I laughed my ass off man. I went with Candy and her friends, but it was just like being there alone since Candy and friends were giggling away at their own joke... ah well.. expected.. So anyway, this brit went on to make jokes about sex (don't they all). He mentioned pissing when a guy is lets say.. erect... its a simple thing.. every guy in one time or another has experienced that.. but somehow.. it was just so damn funny to me! haha.. I nearly fell off my seat laughing and my jaw ached like crazy after that. And that was just the first half!

I don't think I'll type out any of their jokes here mainly cause its not as funny in text.. part of the joke is in the delivery, so no point putting it down in black and white. It won't be amusing. After the stand up was all done, one of the comics came on and juggled. Now this apparently is what my companions were looking forward to alllll night. Not the stand up, but the comic that juggles. Yes, it was fucking impressive, he juggled to a tune, a beat, which I understand is damn difficult and a lot of skill was involved, but sorry, I liked the stand up better :P (damn thats a long sentence)

Last night, as I was planning the revamp, (amazing, I did this revamp in 2 nights, something I never did before) the question of my influences came up. I couldn't quite place who or what influenced me the most. To create the personality that irks so many people. Watching the comics today, I realised what was it. Its not something I'm totally passionate about, neither is it something I consciously seek out.

It is comedy that has influenced me so much. Growing up watching sitcoms, Friends, Mad about you and my all time favourite, Seinfeld are all part of the mix and match that made me. I think I've mentioned this before, my friends say they see Ross in me. The whiny Ross. Yea.. I mentioned all this during a low spell some time back. So now I remember this again. Should I start to pursue this? Should I try to be a comic? I doubt its that simple, but for the moment, I feel slightly relieved.

* Early morning MTV, I still think Celine Dion looks fuddy duddy *

Every morning, I wake up, I plop myself on the couch and put the laptop on my lap. I turn on the Tv and plug in the LAN cable into the computer. I then sit there the entire day, Tv on, playing warcraft on Bnet. I stop to go to the toilet and to eat and drink.

Anyone wanna trade lives?

good news people!
There won't be one more deranged driver on the roads today :)
I FAILED
fcuK

I love meg ryan. I really do.
heh.. I just watched "when harry met sally" on channel 5 and its a pretty good show. ( if I say more, people will start to say wat a wuss I am, but I think its too late anyway :P )
The best thing I like about Meg Ryan are her lips. Those thin..pouty lips. In any case, this blog is pretty much rubbish cos of that movie I just watched. Making me feel fuzzy. So now I shall end this entry before I crap way~~ too much..

on the brighter side, I was at Youth Park today. They have some event going on tomorrow. Something called Youthtopia or something like that. Anyway, they have performances and I got to see 3 of them at rehearsal today. The first was this little caucasian kid breaking to the noise of Freestyler. He breaked to the whole song but if you watch the first 4 moves in his dance, you've seen the whole dance.

The second act was this guy in glasses and stained teeth. He was dressed up like some ronin samurai. So first, he went up to set up his 5 styrofoam targets. He put one up.. and then turned his back to pick up another. Then a breeze came and knocked the 1st target down. Unfazed by this, our ronin samurai bends down and sets the target up again. This time he arranges it so that the wind has a smaller surface area to catch the target. That didn't work either cause the stand of the target was too small.. so down went the target. This went on for a few more times actually, till the other people watching went over and taped the targets down.

Finally with the targets all set up, the music came on. It was the theme to Samurai X. He drew his blade and emulated his hero, Battousai. In the cartoon, Battousai would launch himself meters into the air and smash his blade onto his opponents skull. Our ronin hero however managed a tiny hop and missed his target. I'll give him credit here, he probably was meant to miss. With an air of faux coolness, he walked to the target to his left. Here, he almost managed to execute a brilliant move where he swings the sword out of the sheath and slashes the opponent. If only he didn't lose grip of the blade. He quickly retrieved the plastic sword from the floor and tried to maintain some pride by striking a pose and returning the blade to its sheath. The next few targets went well utill he tried another jumping attack. This time, the sheath came crashing down. You gotta give this guy credit ya know. After all that, he could still go on to do his final "special move" with precise movements, completely smacking the styrofoam target's styrofoam head. Maybe he was wishing that was him if he performed like that tmr.

The last guest was a treat. It was some local singer thats supposed to be pretty famous. But I hardly ever follow the chinese music scene. She's that singer from City Harvest. Since I don't know her name, I'll refer to her as "Sun with Love", her debut album. So Sun with Love is this singer. And she's performing tmr. So today, she has to rehearse in the actually performance location. To see if there are any technical fuck ups. So first, she sings using that strap on mic. You know.. the hands free kind.. so that you can dance while u sing. I only noticed her when there was this dog bark. Like a yelp. Turns out it was her as they clipped the mic on to her. Must have startled her or pinched her or something. Then the music started, her dancer did their dancing thing and she just sang. Was a pretty catchy tune, but maybe I'm only saying that now cause I heard it like.. 5 times this afternoon, must have grown onto me. But strangely, I can't even remember the tune now..
so.. forget wat i said abt it being catchy and all.. it must have sucked.

So anyway, once they have affirmed that the singing was ok.. and it was LIVE. Yea, she did sing LIVE. so Kudos to that. BUT this PRIIIIMA DONNA stops everyone on every little fuckup. And they are usually HER fuckups. "oh wait.. i forgot my dance steps" "oh wait.. I didn't know when to come on.. *so and so* your too soft!" "oh wait.. the mic is slipping off.. Is this the usual mic? wheres my usual mic? this wan keeps slipping off.." yay.. everyone must love her... and after all that was done. She took a drink.. not from anywhere, but from a thermo flask that her faithful assitant hugged close to her chest. U gotta LURVE showbiz, aye?

So that was Youth Park.
The rest of the day was spent eating at taka, searching out the source of the "cream smell" and playing Warcraft.
Friday nite. Playing warcraft.
yay.

xian ah... i got pes b
no mood to do anything anymore..
dowan to make game..
dowan to do anything
now, just have to go and pass napfa.

xian sia

Had my (hopefully) last driving lesson today. Instructor said that I can pass if I keep up this standard.. and basically.. don't FUCK UP on the test day.. and not be late. Everyone remind me. Be at BBDC by 1245 hrs on the 20th. Thats next tuesday. Everyone remind me. Thanks.

Tomorrow is my CMPB medical review. What kind of job will I get? C? E? A!!!?
I hope not A.. anything but A... and not B neither.. that would mean 3 months of waiting for NOTHING!

gosh... I can't stand it. Tmr.. 1.30pm. CMPB.
Egads.

Had my (hopefully) last driving lesson today. Instructor said that I can pass if I keep up this standard.. and basically.. don't FUCK UP on the test day.. and not be late. Everyone remind me. Be at BBDC by 1245 hrs on the 20th. Thats next tuesday. Everyone remind me. Thanks.

Tomorrow is my CMPB medical review. What kind of job will I get? C? E? A!!!?
I hope not A.. anything but A... and not B neither.. that would mean 3 months of waiting for NOTHING!

gosh... I can't stand it. Tmr.. 1.30pm. CMPB.
Egads.

siigh
I gave up on the Flash and so I just uploaded what ever I already had done.. which is.. so.. sucky... looks like something a 15 year old kid could do.. ah well.. I wanna move on and do other stuff now :) So I'll just leave that there... meanwhile the Flash has its own fucked up problems too.. seems to take forever to load... so all you 56k'ers.. sorry...

1.31
I give up liao

get this... at 10pm, i took a nap till 12am. The plan was so I could get up and finally finish off that Flash I've been doing. But in the shower, I decided that it was too crappy. And I'm going to work with HTML instead. Its 1.07am. I feel like stopping again.
Sheesh...

Man.. its been a GREAT day... I tell ya.. its great.
Last night, I went to bed at around 4.. then woke up to a beautiful voice that I haven't heard in a long time at 7. 3 whole hours of sleep. So the day started kinda sluggishly. I left my place and took bus 7 to get to bugis. I was supposed to meet the japs and the other 4 guys at 9am. But I finally got there around 9.15...thanks to early morning Orchard traffic, which I now know is a lot worse than normal Orchard traffic.

So after a while, everyone met everyone and we went for breakfast at Arab Street. We had this SUPER expensive prata and murtabak and some other what nots. The total bill came up to $64..... What the fuck. That was for I think 3 tables of 4 people. So.. that makes 12 aye? 12 people.. $64.. expensive shite. Breakfast was an interesting watch. I couldn't each much, cause I didn't quite have an appetite and also I drank 2 cups of coffee to try and stay awake. However, it was fun to watch 2 jap girls attack prata and exclaim "ah! Spicy! But its nice!!" in their cutesy sing song japanese. Interesting...

After breakfast, we took them on a tour of the famous mosque that was there. Nothing really special about that bit..... I did tell the only guy there, Yuji, whose english is excellent, how the muslims have to go to mecca. yep.. thanks to SCV, I know stuff like that..haha :P

What was after that.... We took a little walk around Kampong Glam, then headed to the direction of Bugis Street, we would meet 2 other girls from Ngee Ann, Mass Comm. Now these Japanese 20, 21 year olds surprise me... we bought them a durian.. and they finished it!! Now that came as a total surprise.

Let me take a break from the boring dredgery and talk about the people. There's Yuji, who is so cool. He speaks with an American accent because he lived there for a year. Thats the main reason why I hung out with him so much. Cause he speaks english!!! And over time, I found myself speaking in a wierd accent too. Not really American, not really Singaporean. Like a mix of both. I wonder when it'll fade away. Then theres Mai, whom we fondly call KazeKo. Which is a direct translation from the chinese word "feng zi" which means "mad person". Now she was a lot of fun.. haha.. cos she's so bubbly and cute and everything all rolled into one. It's a bonus that she doesn't look half bad either. There's also another girl called Kumiko, who is very very very cute. :) But its just too bad I didn't get a lot of chances to talk to her. So those are the few whose names I remember. The rest are fun to be with too.. but I can't remember their names.

So on with the tour. After Bugis, we headed down to Chinatown via MRT. They got to view the renovated shophouses and other shite like that. Typical Chinatown stuff. At that time, I complained that it was sooo boring, but in retrospec, it was pretty nice. I mean, after all, they are tourists, and we are doing stuff that we wouldn't do normally. Like drink those funny teas from the chinatown herbal shop and stop to look at the wierd herbs and magic tonics. This was the time that I got to hang out a little with Kumiko and her friend Yuko. I think thats her name. I found out that Yuko acutally took Chinese lessons back in Japan and she could recognise "Mai Dang Lao" McDonald's. Chinatown was nice. We went to Maxwell market for dessert after that. It was supposed to be lunch time, but everyone was too stuffed from breakfast, so everyone just had ice kachang and bobocharchar. I guess you gotta have those 2 desserts if you ever come to Singapore.

From Chinatown, we took a walk to Tanjong Pagar MRT and headed to my second home, Orchard. We got off at Somerset and headed to Hereen. We spent less then 10 mins in HMV and about 45 mins to maybe over an hour taking Neoprints. Hahahaaha.. I haven't did that in like.. sooooo long!!! But it was so fun! haha.. the Jap girls are so excited and happy about it that the mood just rubs off on you. Makes ya wanna just take more and more and more!! Heh.. I'm so gay :P

It was soon time to head back to the hotel, so we headed towards Orchard MRT. That way, even though they didn't get to shop, at least they had the chance to look around our dumbass shopping district. That is where I got Yuji's present. You see, ever since last night, we've been teaching him Singlish. Everything from "la" to "zar bor" to "lan cheow". Heh.. He mentioned last night that we taught him sooo much, but he didn't have the chance to write it down! so we got him the "Coxford's Singlish Dictionary"!!! hahhaa.. Boy did we have fun with that :p I hope that book doesn't ruin his english though. It'd be such a shame.

When we got back, we took photos, exchanged addresses and contacts. heh.. its been great hanging out with these people. Its been just wonderful. It may have been just 2 days. But we really wanted to stretch every minute we had with them. So we went to the airport :P haha

So at the airport, some of the girls didn't know we would be going to send them off! haha and by some freak chance we got there before them! so when they came into the airport and saw us, it was like "waahh!!!! Why are you guys here!!!!" hahaha... that was fun.. man.. Foriegn friends are a lot of fun. A LOT.

As everyone had dinner, us locals gave a quick tuition lesson for Yuji! heh... he wanted to know wat the important Singlish words were. We went thru a few.. steady la... PCC.... Kao peh kao bu.... the one that he remembers the best is Lim beh ka li gong! hahah!

KazeKo was so sad... she started to cry... awwww... heh.. did I mention that she gave most of us guys a new name? hahah.. we are all "Kaze"-something. I'm KazeRi.. that way it sounds like Crazy :) haha I like.. Man.. she called us her Kaze-Family.. haha
so sweet. poor girl. She cried her eyes out man. At dinner, after dinner, after she went through the immigration counter. Man.. thinking and watching her cry like that made me sad to see them leave too. heh.. Its amazing how she can cry her eyes out for people she met for just 2 days.. Not even 2 full days in fact :T heh.. sigh.. I got to be honest. I miss em already! hahaha.. yea.. wierd....

I remember the final parting words Yuji gave to us,"Lim beh ka li kong ah..." heh.....

So anyway.. that brought an end to my 2 day, Japanese Trainee Teacher experience. It's really been great.. and if anyone of you guys are reading this.. Ganbatte ne! Mata aimashou! haha..
cya guys :)

Lets make this kwik...
I haven't been updating lately cause I spent the time creating a Flash for the webbie. Its like..1/4 done so far.. so.. wait a little longer for it k? :)

And today was Fun. Fun with a capital F. The day was normal, spent like any other day. But night was alll good. Went out with kev and his friends and a whole bunch of japanese university students. They are here for a two day stopover before heading to New Zealand to teach Japanese there. The students are trainee teachers and so they came here to observe a lesson in progress. So they'll be flying off tomorrow at around 9... and so they have free time till 5. We'll be showing them around AGAIN then.

We brought them to places like Boat Quay ( which btw means erection in japanese ) and Fullerton ( which means nothing in Japanese) and a little around Raffles Place. They stayed in a hotel near Bugis. So we took the train to Raffles and then walked back to their hotel via City Hall.

The group is made up of 6 or 7 gals and 1 guy. The guy is DAAAMN cool man. I know that I've said before that I dunno how to see if a guy is good looking. But this time, I am damn sure that this jap dude is super good looking. He's got that.. boyish look. Damn cool. AND! He speaks DAMN good english. Thats like a super hot commodity man. He spent a year in Kentucky like 3 years back and so his english has that American twang to it. So think abt it.. he's a good looking jap guy who can speak english. Wah kaoz. I want to be him man. hahaha. And no, I am not a faggot :p

The girlie girls weren't bad too :) There was this one girl that looks real cute. But she didn't hang out with us, so too bad :T then theres this other girl thats super bubbly and she doesn't look half bad either. But their english isn't as great and my japanese is horrible. Never fear. Tmr! Tmr I will try harder! hahaa... but.. hard ah... did I mention that bubbly girl zao geng herself? haha!!

man.. its been a reallllllyy long day.. and tmr.. i'm supposed to meet them at 9 at their hotel. die liao loh.. die

I WILL DESIGN A GREAT SITE!
I WILL DESIGN A GREAT SITE!
I WILL DESIGN A GREAT SITE!
I WILL! I WILL!

Thats my thoughts before I go off to sleep. Today I started up my Macromedia Flash MX again and I actually Tweened a line from left to right. Then I turned it off again. *FOR GOODNESS SAKES!! THINK OF SOMETHING GOOD DAMMIT!!* I can't even think of what I want the site to look like. I went to Korn and I think they have a pretty kewl flash navigator. *WHY CAN'T I SCRIPT OR DRAW LIKE THAT!!!* Time is running out. I need to put something good up soon, the urge to create something great will escape me soon.

How do people get good at what they do? They practice.. they learn from the experts. But how can I learn from the experts if there are NO EXPERTS whom I can ask? And besides, how in the world do you teach a style? *FOR GOODNESS SAKES!!! THINK UP YOUR OWN STYLE!!* Easier said then done. I have ideas in my head. I do. But I can't create what I think. I can't even put it on to paper!

I shouldn't be struggling with this now. I should have been struggling this 2, 3 years ago. When I was still in school. Where I had sooo many chances to screw up and at least there'd be someone who'd put me back in place. Now, no matter how I screw up, no ones there to unscrew things. *YOU'RE SO SCREWED*

What am I going to do now? I got to start thinking about my future. I'm not exactly a great artist. I like websites. I like Flash. I wish I could create cartoons. *DREAM ON* yea.. but I can't. I can't draw for nuts. I can't design crap.

Wait a fucking second....... You know how those people they show on TV, those people that made it big or achieved their dreams. They always say "Don't let people around you tell you what you cannot do. if you believe in yourself, you can do it." Does this mean I'm screwed? Even I don't believe in myself. Is that how I want to go on? Being such a fuck up? Hell no... I gotta do something about this..

I WILL NOT BE A FUCK UP!
I WILL NOT BE A FUCK UP!
I WILL NOT BE A FUCK UP!
I WON'T! I WON'T!